=)

2009-09-26T06:39:00.000-07:00

2009-09-24T04:23:00.000-07:00

"Improving self and others" ---> a very good meaning to it.

It is a small world after all. -.-" I didnt know Faizal is an exco of ITE SC Balestier.

Tomorrow i need to be in sch 6.30am?? =.= SIAO ARH! Maybe i will come abit later. xD 7.30am or earliest is 7.15 am.

I dunno how you top people organise this event. This is a big event, you people make it like just another event! HELLO!! it is an INTER COLLEGE TELEMATCH. *yakdush to all of youuuu*

yea, tmr do abit of facilitation again! something to be happy about. And I'm ready! HAAHA!

REDsss OOOOIIII!!!

2009-09-19T09:56:00.000-07:00

HAHA, i was browsing my desktop and i saw this old pic.... hahaha! funny all went craze after seeing the public defribilator at marina square. HAH! Gosh i really do miss nursing life. The fun, the patients plus the dickies? xD the fucked up doctors, the fellow fucked up nurses and great fun nurses.. xD well i just miss nursing thats all... =)

ok tats all.. random lah the pic.. and of cos the post.

2009-09-13T09:04:00.000-07:00

ROW was a blast. Although the early part is damn cocked up lor. But the thing that make me smile is the family. The part at GIANT was memorable. Just took the item without counting. -.-" Thats the part i struggled to count. xD The main point is that we learn something from each other which is LOVE, CARE AND BONDING. This three words is important for a family without this there is no family. Well i stop here, maybe the pics will do the talking.

Adam

The things they bought which cost 100 dollars.

The family

Didn't expect to see my junior. xD muka tak kuasa

Adam and Cik Shariffa
HAHA!
Night life

PS: Maybe i wont do ROW or any event next year due to what happened. People seem juz don't understand what am i trying to do.

2009-08-22T07:33:00.000-07:00

Suppose to have 3 macho guys right above but one turned sissy. -.-"

First lets talk abt me. Life have been not so great. I'm trying to be myself but im not doin it. Trying to change ppl but forgot to change myself. Trying to do better but worsen. Pressure is on me. What should i do?

In other words, im not doing that well.

IM NOT DOING WELL IM NOT DOING WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO. =(

2009-07-31T07:48:00.000-07:00

*ice age 4?*

Getting clueless and aimless everyday due to some things. Well so far some of my motivations are back. I need it anyway. I also need a peace of mine, i think im getting crazy day by day too. HAHA! kinda scared of schizophrenia.

As for school, it is fun fun fun. I get to meet more friends. =D Well i simply dunno what to update.

PS: anyone knows any high elements open for public?

2009-07-24T07:11:00.000-07:00

here is seoul gardens pic. hahaha..

im a better cook..

=D

PARAMORE; The Final RIOT! {Official} We Are Broken

2009-07-04T08:21:00.001-07:00

I fell in love with this song all because of the drums and vocals..

Became Jiwang for awhile listening to this song. Ok, i became very and im really very soft. Thats is sooooooo not me!?!!!

Now feeling sad cos ppl scolding in the middle of the night, scolded for the doing the right thing, to me is the right thing to do. which is fustrating enough. maybe i juz leave u alone on that day. Im trying to make u happy this is wat i get in return. Small things ppl dun see, but big things they do see.

haizzzzz....

btw school going to start on monday. Am i ready or just plain scared. =(

ok lah tats all, so guys juz enjoy the video.

nice song. =) a tribute to paramore

2009-06-20T06:23:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling kinda sad right now. I dunno why my company didnt call me out for camps lately which is demoralising and i dunno what the hell i want to say.

Well, i love doing camps, i want to improve, improve to be a better instructor. Well, one day i will get my chance with u ppl. And i know u guys had camps a few days ago.

Adventure Camp? Well, ok lah... Not bad but there's alot to improve...

I WANT TO DO CAMPSSSSSSSSSS!!!

Paramore - Thats What You Get (Video HD)

2009-06-12T06:46:00.001-07:00

Listen to this song then! nice... =)

2009-05-28T07:22:00.000-07:00

SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING!! BEEN LAZY AND SUPER DUPER TIRED!!

Well, nth to update on. Well, ppl are still crazy as alwayssss...

haahaha! I want to go swimming.. xD

2009-05-09T23:08:00.000-07:00

Yesterday's my sis tunang was ok lah. I thought that 50 ppl are coming in the ends is like 100 plus plus came to my house. I was like "SHIT!" The whole day, i only did the topping up of mango water, photos, checking my Danish SISTER to online, video and running down to 7 eleven just to buy ice. I acted happy and hyper but inside really damn depressed.

Got scolded for nothing by my loved ones except for my dad who didn't scold me.. hah! something to be happy about.

I think im in the state of depression. Going to be out of money and nv get to enjoy some of the money to buy some things, getting skinnier, 1500m run is like 3 days, didn't get time to train for the run, pinnacles race is juz another 1 month. Gosh! so many things to do.

I just wish that when im old, i want to be like juz my grandfather who is now having dementia. If i got tat my face will be very sad, forget things and goin weak. Maybe ppl will leave me and will rot myself....

well, no mood to do things. Not even training...

1500m in 3 days...

tats all

2009-04-22T06:21:00.000-07:00

Well, kinda feverish now.

Frm now on i will eat at noods, noods only. *at ITE COLLEGE EAST!*

Well life was so at AFS, was kinda cool, friends are getting well...

Well, sick now.. =) resting..

2009-04-21T06:28:00.000-07:00

My first day in school kinda a blast, all my classmates are ok. Easy to get along.

Dun want to be back in SC, not that fun it was used to, and of cos some of them shocked to see me in school. HAHA!!

I thought i won't touch PPE, 7 step handwashing, guidelines, and protocols but i was wrong, damn! I will study hard for this course, really study. Mistakes no more for me.

Im still thinking wat CCA to join. HMMMMM!! No more SC for me. OAC or just follow the gang at adventure camp...... i dunnnooooo seh....

Tmr P.E. DIE LIAO! ASMAH MY PE TEACHER!!! MAMPUS!!!!!

woots.

I need a whistle. =)

2009-04-17T07:50:00.000-07:00

I want to do Rock Climbing! I want to travel to other countries not Malaysia. But dun have money ah. Im going broke soon, real soon. Does anyone have a job to intro to me? I want money.

UPDATED WISHLIST.

G-SHOCK WATCH
Red SALOMON Jacket
ADIDAS/ OAKLEY Sunglasses.
Timbuke bag
Ipod Touch
Fox 40 Whistle
Pen Torch * i dunno how i lost my torch*
New clothes and bermuda or pants.(i really need it)

SO total would be hmmmmm estimated $1000 plus.

HAHAHA! so it worth my 5 months salary.. So i really need another job.

Btw I've got a call from ITE, saying they are trying to see any availabe slot for me to be in the course i applied. HAHA! stupid but praying and hoping to get good news from them

I want to start sch again, I want to see all my gerek friends there. All go to paramedic. WTH..

HAHA!!!

And for the last time, i want to go rock climbing. I want to see how scared i am.. xD

2009-04-12T08:38:00.000-07:00

BINTAN PICTURE THE COOLEST OF THEM ALL.. plus my shades.. xD

Dragonboaters.. haha * arul, liang, daziree, me, bowen and farhanah

What am i doing??? xD The mummy pose.. Raj is doing model pose.

well pictures of camp life.. xD funny sia....

B4 doing the AJC programme... I went inside the CC office, Alex went "AT LAST U ARE HERE FOR CAMP!!" I was like =.= "blame them for not calling me! HA!"

Well this is camp.. haiyah.. memories...

But sometimes if u have a chance, the best thing tat in the camp is....

have time with ur loved ones.. =) When want to do camps together???

tats all

2009-04-11T06:22:00.000-07:00

Im getting really skinny like my father used to be when he was young. Runs in the blood i guess. Gosh high metabolism. Well life have been the same since graduation day. Camps, home, eat, sleep, go out. Its the same routine although camps is fun. So camps do keep it coming. Speaking of camps, the bloody fucking ppl haven't yet confirm me abt their next programme. Hopefully i'll get it.

OMG! I haven't buy anything for my camps. OMG!! DAMN WHISTLE AND TORCH!! AHHHH!!! $11.50 i need to spend. =) Why is so expensive?? Why?? Cos the whistle will cost me $9.50 (got standard lor the whistle) and torch $2..

Ok, beside camps?? My bodyweight dropped again for 120928302840 times. 2 kg loss. HAIZ! I want to gain weight not losing it. hahahaha! Eat more train most. Who wants to go gym??? So do tag okay?

Oh ya ya.. I plan to go to maulid rasul. In the end laziness conquered me. hahaha!!! Haiz Azhar its time to bring ur huge butt and do something. U're useless......

(WARNING IT IS SO RANDOM)

I miss my ex school mates (ITE, HYSS and PRI SCH)

(NOT RANDOM)
I damn fucking worried abt someone right now. I called, no one answer, I msg, nv reply. I wonder if she is okay or not and of cos i miss her the most.. grrrrr....

Well lets hope and pray everything is fine. =)

Well tats all...

NTh special to update abt....

2009-04-09T06:27:00.000-07:00

Im fucking pissed.. I paid $54.20 for my blood tests and urine tests. $54.20 gone..

After paying the $54.20. I looked at the lab paper chit. Omg! I'm doing the renal panel test and diabetic panel. No wonder is fucking expensive. Grr... Well all i want now is the result to be ok.

And one more thing, $54.20 can buy alot of things sehhhhhh..

I wonder when will i get the NS letter or school. Today i receive a letter from ITE. I thought i've got the school in the end i look the letter. "APPLICATION FOR BIOTECH UNSUCCESSFUL" Sad indeed. I applied for Applied Food Science. Hopefully i can get in. If not, i'll be off to National Service. Nearly all of my friends are now serving their NS. OMG!! Screw Singapore.. Maybe in the future i might want to migrate to another country. MAYBE DENMARK!! =)

Well, im pissed wit the $54.20 and ITE...

I think i want to be a motivator or trainer. =) I must work hard for it..

Tats all peeps.

Today i have a nice lady lab phlombetist *if correct spelling* who has a son who is same age and birthday as me taking my blood... =) I find it cool..

2009-04-08T08:52:00.000-07:00

Today i went swimming n of cos swimming is gd for u.

Well, it is the matter of u want to do it or not. LOL!

Im a failure of cos. Need to be motivated. And haven't contact Allie from Camp Challenge tat im avaiable for work. SHIT!

I always thinking of dying but i haven't die. What to do, not your time yet. I dunno lah whether i have mood disorder or depression, till today i kept on wondering. Well i dun want tat to get in my way. So i juz to focus on what am i doing, cos every moment is a challenge. *motto focus adventure nampak*

Ok here is the best part: STRESS ARE CREATED BY STRESSORS

It is healthy to have stress in ur life.. Too much stress or no stress is a abnormal to any human beings. It is how u cope or manage ur stress. So guys plz, chill and focus n of cos think.. Learn how to laugh on wat u stressings.. u can find it funny sometimes.. N laughter can reduce stress..

hahha!!

=))

I think im goin to exercise....

2009-04-06T07:13:00.000-07:00

Well for a start i will talk about what are the things that caught my eyes today.

1) Adventure Camp. I saw them "trained" the new "trainers".. I wonder why all of them are malays. Really disturbing. And the thing that really bugging me till now is the place they conducted is so freaking fucking quiet. Where is the damn loud noise. hahaha! I promised myself not to fall asleep. xD Well, this Adventure Camp got potential to be a force for other camp company in the future. Hope so...
mcmphmjesiazhar...

2) Norashidah.... I feel like i have a new gf. -.- bugs me alot but i like it. =) Do things together.. Can? Plz.

3) New haircut. i now it is nice, Shidah is loving it. But got this female nurse keep looking at me.. AHHHHHH!!! making me so un-comfortable.. zzzzzzzzzzz.... Ever heard a guy uncomfortable when a girl looking at him. Ok thats me.. HAHAHA! This is what i called shyness aka girliiieeeeee... xD

4) My cheque.. $150... wooots...

5) I need new phone. Stupid and my current phone is like malfunctioning.

6) Well abt the nurse thingy. I saw alot of nurses this few days. I don't know but whether should i apply for the Enrolled Nurse job now. I want the money man.. Work, got money.... I don't want to be like last time. All the stupid mistakes i make and the stress keep on piling up like shit. I really need to cool down and a straight mind n also focus for this job. Well, i haven't apply for the liscence, so cannot work yet... Dunno when... registration fee=$70. Fucked up can?

Praying that everyday is better than yesterday...

toodles guys... haha

2009-04-05T07:34:00.000-07:00

its a small photo..

i had fun doing this....

2009-04-05T00:09:00.001-07:00

hahaha! this is so random...

my wishlist for 2009

SALOMON Red Jacket [$100 plus]
Water sport shoes [$20-$80]
Mp3/Mp4 [$100-$400]
Bag [$??]
Clothes [????]
Tazmania Devil Huge Doll [$89]
Happiness [Far fetch]
More love [sure can]

2009-04-03T06:28:00.000-07:00

I don't know why i'm opened up this blog again. Maybe i miss blogging. Well im a human afterall. I can't stop everything.

Well i just got back from camp yesterday actually. Its been ups and down at the camp. Sunday check in... got myslf into trouble, and i found out the truth abt me in that company which is sad and demoralising. =(

1st camp was ok but the 2nd camp was awesome. I'm incharge of one of the staion of high Elements. I learned alot of HIGH E. Gosh i need to relearn my figure of eight. I got blisters, rope burns and now im black like MAMAssssssssss. HAHHHAHAHA!

Well i dun have the pictures of the camp which is very sad. Hopefully i could be call for camps.

I need the money. =,(

I miss Norashidah. WAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH! T_____________________T